Recently..

Things havent been going well.

Home is in a mess.

System is in a mess.

I havent been very happy for quite a while.

The old me seems far away.


Sometimes I just hope that time would stop at the point when I was 21 or even younger.

What exactly went wrong?

I have no idea. It's all chaotic in Thailand now and my dear brother called me just now to drop a surprise.

"I have a surprise for you. I am flying to Thailand tomorrow morning at 530am."

I was not at all happy when I hear this. He wanted me to relate this to my parents. This responsibility is too big for me to shoulder. I passed the phone to my dad instead. I think could sense the huge disappointment in my dad. My parents are sure to be worried sick. Sighs. Doesn't he know that everyone is rushing home or trying to avoid that place? Yes, I know that bloody woman is going back but is there a need for him to be there as well? Even if there is, I think it is good that he informs before hand and not a few hours before he leaves for the airport. Maybe dad was right to say that he has been under a spell. It may sound stupid but it cant be helped. Many things really made us feel this way.

Anyway, I did what I could already and told him to register with MFA before going and call back to tell my parents that he is safe. Nothing more I can do, I guess.

Just feel so F* up these weeks.

So many things happened and I am really not in the best of mood.

Where have I went? Seems hard to be myself recently.

Still searching and hoping that there will be a better tomorrow.

That Disgusting Colleague

我想我忍够了。。 坐我对面的那个男人，超级没男人风度！先是说我的话文好烂（我二话不说，连理都不理他，一笑而过），好生气哦！我连话都没说，他就突然说我的华语烂，一定没他的好。。但他的发音连音准都没有啊！怎么能够说我呢？那还没关系。。 他还做了一些小动作。。 问我怎么电由地址不是最新的，难道他不知道什么叫做样板吗？

1。身为部门总管，他连最基本的礼貌都不懂，哪来的专业？

2。他还在我面前说我老板的坏话，说完了才说，‘这里有间蝶’，也就是在说我.. 这叫专业吗？

读那么多书，结果比我这种还在读书的人来的烂！
真的是超级不爽他！

以下可能有点人生攻击。。 可我不管那么多了！
可能因为没女朋友，所以他那么经经济较。。大家都不是很喜欢他，但他还以为自己那么受欢迎。祝他好运。
有时候，我真的觉得。。“活该他没女朋友！”
我知道自己好缺德，可我觉得对他这种人，没什么需要极口德的。。