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With so many different available social media platforms, I slowly lost the urge to keep this blog alive. After a long hiatus, I feel like blogging again. Perhaps this is one of the not so good day to begin with for the week. But, I'll just embrace whatever that comes.


There are times I look back and really wondered how I overcomed the past year. So many things had happened - family, friends, work.. I had my downs last year and hope this year would be a better year but unfortunately, I did not have a good start of 2012. I had a different new year this year, my brother is still away. I am not sure how long this whole episode will last, I hope things will end soon.. as I am really tired.. tired of being the clown, peacemaker and entertainer of my parents.. even when I am feeling down myself. I just had to put up that false front to deceive them.

Yet, I've made it through but I think it's beginning to take a toil on me. I think I can no longer control my emotions as well as before. In 2012, my eldest brother, Sunny came back after 12 years. I really don't know if this is something to be happy about or worried about. Im happy that my dad now smiles more than before, but I am worried that his return might spell something bad for me. Perhaps I am paranoid, but once bitten, twice shy. The scene of him telling me "I don't know who you are" still remains very fresh in my mind. I think no one can imagine that his/her brother would say this to him/her, right in the face. It hurts, I try to forgive but, I cannot forget still. I just pray that nothing comes with his return and I am happy.

But, I am still afraid, that what happened last year will happen again. I just don't want to cry to sleep again, where crying was the avenue to release the stress.

Just feeling a little under the weather today and thus, I have a very negative post. Anyway, it's time for bed.

What happened from May - Jul 2011?

Alot of things happened these 2 months and many first time also happened! Life has been great and more to be coming. :)

This year, I have completed many trips and a few more to come.

Before that, , I wanna shout "I HAVE FINALLY GRADUATED!"

Ok. Let me carry on. :x I went on my first business trip to Bangkok and that was also my very first trip to BKK! That followed by HK trip with Kymmi & Xuanhui. Upcoming next would be Batam day trip, Genting, BKK (again) and Vietnam. I am super excited but on the other hand. I feel kinda confused over some things too.

It's work vs convocation & work vs best friend's wedding. What to do? I am still trying hard to find a solution for these 2 issues. I worked hard for the past 3.5yrs to get this degree, if I don't go for the convocation, I feel like I have let myself down. Best friend's wedding is in Nov and guess what? They scheduled me on trip to Vietnam. If I miss this, I know she would be very very disappointed and I want her to be happy on her wedding day. *sighs*

If I forgo these trips, I will miss a great chance and the highlights for my career paths, and also, I would be disappointed. What should I do? It's really a big headache. Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

Anyways... The below images kinda concludes where I have been these 2 months. Enjoy~

 

Su Ling is back!

This must have been one of the longest time since I last updated the blog. No, I've not forgotten about this blog. It's just that I've been real busy and too tired recently to give updates.

I seem to be using Twitter more compared to blogspot and facebook these days.

Had my last paper a Saturday ago. I hope its really the last for these 2 modules and that can then mark the end of my degree course (a.k.a GRADUATE). ^ ^ Things are more settled at home and I hope it remains this way. :)

Work gets pretty exciting, challenging, tiring recently and many first times are going to happen in my life.

1. Purchasing the first luggage at home
2. Business Trip to Bangkok, Thailand
3. Alone to Thailand for the first time

Where have I gone?

It's been months and I think cobwebs are growing on this near-abandoned blog. Where exactly have I gone to? I've been missing in action till "Buay Lin Chu". Work is horrible + challenging + speechless. Last sem of school but still, where did the motivation go? Maybe it has also gone missing in action, just like me.

Taking the super soft approach on my bro by ignoring him and not recognising his presence at times. I think I have given up. It is indeed how true that love and hatred is just a line difference. April is coming and soon he will be going in. I wish him best of luck and hope one day, he will come out a brand new person. Skeptical if that will happen, but let's see.

Hope this period of time will be a good cooling and peaceful period for my parents. It's been a long while. They went through the roller coasters of lives once again, at this age. Not very fun huh? Anyways, just keeping my fingers crossed on what will happen next.

Ok, Im just trying to keep the blog alive by updating some bits abt the ongoings. I'll update more when the mood comes and when the feel comes. Goodnight people.