heya.. found a temp job for the coming holidays! yay! haha.. its gonna be at west coast.. not sure of the company name yet.. found it through jobstreet. have to work from 8 - 6 on mons to thurs and 8-5 on firdays.. yippeee.. pay isnt high though.. 5.5 an hour.. but ok la.. coz they say still got OT all those ma.. plus its a 5days work week job.. suitable for me.. so i juz agreed to it loh.. will be working on sat and sun at ntuc for the time being. shall quit after i find another better job.. haha..:x jazz.. dun learn from me k..=) oh yah.. back to the job i just got.. was told main job scope was admin and some data entry.. ok lah.. dun really mind.. so long can earn money can liao..

decided that we shld juz remain as friends for now. :) some of u may noe y.. i shall not elaborate here.. let it remain as it is.. hee.. yeah.. been toking to fred these days.. not bad not bad.. very long nvr tok to him.. i mean.. last time seldom have the chance to tok to him.. not like now.. shld be meeting up before sch start i think..

at my workplace now.. nth to do.. finished all the work.. so here i am to rot again.. shld have sent the report to my email but i forgot to.. which is y im rotting now.. sobx.. -.-

Ok, im updating. i noe some of u miss me. haha! especially my dearie milo. coz she kept asking me to update. work is boring. can imagine me blogging at my workplace. nth to do for the whole day.. just did some of my report, 1610 words.. at least another 390 more to go.. jia you! yeah.. i redo everything. coz after the discussion with gene, jiayi and hendry, i somehow feel that what i have done is not really right..

one more week to go! i'va already submitted alot of resumes online for part time admin work. any lobangs please tell me ok! for a month.. :) dun feel like working at NTUC le.. but somehow like quite guilty if i quit now.. coz i did not really mention anything about quitting to qiumei.. *thinking* i guess im really bad at numbers.. only tallied once before.. and the rest are all more than the estimated amount.. sobx..should i really quit? i dun feel good with not tallying after working there for a mth already.. sighs..

things look bad for him.. guess this is wad u all are interested in yea? haha.. hmm.. they nvr patch up and he nvr intend to patch up with her.. told me last night that the ger keep calling him, he feels so irritated by her.. i juz kept quiet.. din really talk much to him these days after the unhappiness last sat.. sighs. but that talk really made me feel that i do not know him that well.. he's more of an extremist, with 2 extreme sides. perhaps he has always showed me the good side.. which was why im unable to take it when i see the other side.. not bad. but rather its his bad tempered side. im beginning to wonder about the words he told me initially. he was rather frank with me at the beginning but i would not assume so after we 2 got closer. argh. shall not tok about it further.. maybe continue next time when there are new updates. been pondering if all these are just infatuations. isit really coz he was there when i needed some1 and vice versa or wad.. truth is always hard to find out. especially so when the bond is not there yet..

grrr.. talked to fred last nite.. first time we could hold a conversation for so long.. and he agreed on that. we were like old frens talking. the feeling is good! haha.. coz i think we can talk last we used to and im happy to gain back this friend. first time after so long, he is telling me about his stuff.. haha.. :x might be meeting him this coming holidays.. maybe with his frens or wad.. not very sure too. but im sure the trip will be to sentosa. i hope the trip will be on.

Mr Frederick, hope you wont bluff me this time round.

haha.. notice i purposely bold it. hoho.. anyway.. tonight's superstar final~! i hope kelly wins. Sorry to kelvin's fans.. but im a supporter of Kelly..:x hope i can get back home by 730 for the show.. its currrently 5:08pm.. another 52 mins to the end of work.. heehee..

Sometimes i really hope im living in my dreams, that way, nth will be true.. *sighs*

i wish i could turn back time to know the real you again.. maybe you said all that u said in a fit of anger but somehow i cant accept those words.. its too harsh.. it makes u sound so aggressive and me scared of ya.. cheap is definitely not the word i would want u to use on anyone.. yes i noe.. the feeling of being betrayed.. but why wanna say those words to hurt the other party when u noe how disappointed it is to be hurt by the person u like most..

decided to write it out here instead of over at the other blog.. dunno why the decision.. yeaps.. talked to him the other night and couldnt really take it.. the way he speaked was so aggressive and revengeful.. din noe 1 can be so full of hatred to others.. sighs.. maybe we are really from two different worlds.. i dunno.. it makes me scared of him from the way he speaks.. yes i noe he need frens to be by his side but i really hope he would change.. he needs help from himself more than others.. if he cant even listen to himself, i guess he wont listen to others oso.. its always lidat, at least for me.. he is just so stubborn.. maybe lena is right.. i shld be by his side to lend him a listening ear and to support him.. but.. we seem to land in argument whenever i tok to him abt it.. sighs.. speechless at times.. and helpless.. :(

he din wanna go back the other day when we were talking.. but at least he listened to me and headed home.. dun understand why.. he din wanted his parents to get worried yet din wanna go back.. (-.-") cant find him since yesterday.. hope he's fine.. know where he went yesterday but kinda worried.. i would definitely not want to see any of my frens get into any kind of harm.. =/

hope things will go fine for you and pls stand on ur feets again.. no point indulging in depression and thinking of ways to spite her.. that is being childish.. told ya b4.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. wads the point of spiting her? just to make urself more miserable.. hope u would keep ur promises.. and not change to someone i wouldnt wanna see..

going work soon.. take care pals.. shall update again..

just reached 900 words for assignment 2. 600 more words to go! jia you suling! haha.. met up with cheryl today.. accompany her to marsiling for a haircut.. i tot she looks alrite but she thinks otherwise.. hmm.. nvm.. :) went sakae for dinner with her.. both of us ordered ramen.. yum yum... its nice.. tommy was nice too. to give us free mochi and he did not count the colour plate that we have on the table.. hehee.. yeapz.. headed home after that.. nth much..

that's the pig jiamin gave me.. --->
din erase the bday song away.. its still there! hee..

oh yah.. today karen called me from the other office and told me to report for work there this coming monday.. that means i will be helping out in the finance dept.. wooo.. new task! she even asked if i wanna extend my stay.. dunno if its for real.. but i dun mind, hopefully the part time pay will be not bad.. hee..

hmm.. looks still remain as they are. no changes. except that it makes me as clueless as ever. all the calls and sms-es. we are close friends. no doubt about that. :) no worries gals.. i know where to stop and when to stop. not gonna walk beyond the boundaries of "friends". that is it for now..