DOUBLE BLOW
Got home at 11plus just now. Mum was up waiting for me. She showed me something which was rather unexpected and asked me to read it to her as it was all written in English. What she showed me was an ECG report of my dad and a referral letter to SGH. Sucks. ECG? Yea.. ECG.. the doc suspects that he may be having some heart problem and refers him to SGH for further checkups. But he refused to go. Hais. Bad things seem to be coming one after another. I don't have a good feeling about everything. First was the quarrel. Now this. Wad's next?
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
New Chapter
Hmm.. a chapter of my life has ended and a chapter is beginning. End are those days of my official school life. Im gonna step into the "Working University" a.k.a 社会大学. Gonna be rather challenging and i finally know the job title of the position that im given. It's admin for general and facilities management. That's the high class name i guess. The other name for it will be "Bao Ga Liao". haha.. meaning everything also have to take charge. haha.. and i was told, i have to handle small little things in the office to bigger small things. =/ but well, i dun mind. Everything is new to me, a learning opportunity for me. =)
Oh wells.. went for the briefing today at the company. It was rather sudden and im sorry guys that i had to call off the outing to my place where we were supposed to be cooking spaghetti and playing mahjong together. I was already expecting to go to the company for the job briefing but i din noe that it would be that late, at 4pm. Hope u guys had ur own activities. The briefing was fine, i got a better idea of what im supposed to do for the new job. Cheers. =)
And milo, i know you are trying to help me but somehow, it really take 2 hands to clap. Several a times, i tried to smile or even strike a conversation with her . But wells, she acted indifferently. I got no idea how to tackle this situation too. So i supposed im not gonna take anymore initiative. Im tired of it. Wait then wait, stupid then stupid. I did tried afterall. Haiz.
Friendship
Its 315am now.. I cant seem to get to bed. Sighs. Been thinking of what milo talk to me about her just nw at starbucks. I think i really have drifted very far from her. Its no longer the same her i used to noe. The her whom im able to share my happiness and woes, my small secrets about him. Its all different now. hais.
I used to think that i have a very clear idea of friendship and what it is all about. But now i realised i dunno. What exactly is it? Friendship is to make use of your friends? Or to hurt each other? I really don't noe. Maybe i really treat her as one of my best friends. But the things she said to me really hurt me alot. I wasnt trying to defend anyone. I was just standing on the neutral side (if u noe wad i mean). Its tough. Both are my best friends and they are pin pointing at each other. Who should i help? There is nth i can do i guess. Haiz.. now that i have lost this friendship, this very important friendship, i really think that i have lost the meaning of friendship too.
Yes, it may be a misunderstanding. But.. too big a misunderstanding i guess. Miscommunication plays a big part to this situation. Misinterpretation and Assumptions. I hate assumptions. It often stirs trouble. Sucks. Wadever.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Running away from reality..
It's back again. This thing cant seem to simmer down. i really hate it. sometimes i wish i can run away from reality but i cant!! hais.. family is always the thing im most troubled about. i simply got no idea how to handle the adults. Can anyone tell me wad to do during the period when my bro is to be away in taiwan for ns? i think i will hardly survive. he told me to move into his place. funny.. he said tt jokingly though.. we aren't close to that extend. =) but nevertheless, thanks for offering your place and wanting to lend me ur ears during this period of time.
Anyway, let me thrust those problems aside. I shall now announce that i have unofficially graduated from BIT. HOHOHOHOHO. the position at Premier is confirmed but im not very sure when im gonna start work as i met up with just the MD ytd, coz the manager wanted him to see me and tell her his gut feeling about me. =/ i got no idea why too.
Went out with des, gh, gene and cute ger on our last paper.. which was friday.. haha.. quite funny.. walked here and there, supposed to have steamboat but it became a meal at ajisen. the mood wasnt very right on friday oso.. i think gene sort of felt down when we din wanted to go ktv.. coz its like rather ex.. more than 20bucks.. but its normal rate for a friday though.. =/ went to play pool at kpool cine.. so funny.. the 5 of us took turns to play in a single session.. must be wondering how right.. heh.. next time then ask me..
Sat, which was ytd, met up with lena, xian and kel.. the 4 of us went for dinner at pasta.. lena got some r/s prob and wans to hear our comments.. walked around after the dinner and kel headed to town to indo chine, it was ard 8 i guess? and then the 3 of us went to the mac at civics centre and had our very own pubbing session. As u can see, we can also have pubbing session at macdonalds.. haha.. talk alot.. was about 930 and we gave gene a call and asked if he wanted to join us. heh.. in the meanwhile, bang came along, the 4 of us chatted and chatted.. not long gene came. then we chat and chat again.. it was already 1215 when we left the macs.. 4 hrs!! haha.. got told the infra red story and everyone laughed. =x oh yah.. forgot to mention about kel's psychotic behaviour. he shld be under too much stress for the past few mths.. he feels like pushing pple onto the whenever he sees them jaywalk.. and its very risky for anyone to stand in front of him if he's going down the stairs.. he feels like kicking them down.. -.- the worst one is tt he likes to abstract ppl's fats! omg.. so bian tai!!! =x but the way he said it was damn funny..! and it became the joke of the day.. thanks kel for bringing us so much laughter. it was hard to solve lena's prob.. coz we dunno her bf well, just seen him before a few times.. so yea.. =) but engagement is definitely a nono.. esp when things arent going the right way now.
im quite glad i was with them last night.. coz it was also the night when things at my house go wrong. i dun feel like facing my parents.. probably i got no idea how to oso. its so sian to be harping on the same old issue again and again. HAIS. LIFE SUCKS. GRRRRRR.
It's back again. This thing cant seem to simmer down. i really hate it. sometimes i wish i can run away from reality but i cant!! hais.. family is always the thing im most troubled about. i simply got no idea how to handle the adults. Can anyone tell me wad to do during the period when my bro is to be away in taiwan for ns? i think i will hardly survive. he told me to move into his place. funny.. he said tt jokingly though.. we aren't close to that extend. =) but nevertheless, thanks for offering your place and wanting to lend me ur ears during this period of time.
Anyway, let me thrust those problems aside. I shall now announce that i have unofficially graduated from BIT. HOHOHOHOHO. the position at Premier is confirmed but im not very sure when im gonna start work as i met up with just the MD ytd, coz the manager wanted him to see me and tell her his gut feeling about me. =/ i got no idea why too.
Went out with des, gh, gene and cute ger on our last paper.. which was friday.. haha.. quite funny.. walked here and there, supposed to have steamboat but it became a meal at ajisen. the mood wasnt very right on friday oso.. i think gene sort of felt down when we din wanted to go ktv.. coz its like rather ex.. more than 20bucks.. but its normal rate for a friday though.. =/ went to play pool at kpool cine.. so funny.. the 5 of us took turns to play in a single session.. must be wondering how right.. heh.. next time then ask me..
Sat, which was ytd, met up with lena, xian and kel.. the 4 of us went for dinner at pasta.. lena got some r/s prob and wans to hear our comments.. walked around after the dinner and kel headed to town to indo chine, it was ard 8 i guess? and then the 3 of us went to the mac at civics centre and had our very own pubbing session. As u can see, we can also have pubbing session at macdonalds.. haha.. talk alot.. was about 930 and we gave gene a call and asked if he wanted to join us. heh.. in the meanwhile, bang came along, the 4 of us chatted and chatted.. not long gene came. then we chat and chat again.. it was already 1215 when we left the macs.. 4 hrs!! haha.. got told the infra red story and everyone laughed. =x oh yah.. forgot to mention about kel's psychotic behaviour. he shld be under too much stress for the past few mths.. he feels like pushing pple onto the whenever he sees them jaywalk.. and its very risky for anyone to stand in front of him if he's going down the stairs.. he feels like kicking them down.. -.- the worst one is tt he likes to abstract ppl's fats! omg.. so bian tai!!! =x but the way he said it was damn funny..! and it became the joke of the day.. thanks kel for bringing us so much laughter. it was hard to solve lena's prob.. coz we dunno her bf well, just seen him before a few times.. so yea.. =) but engagement is definitely a nono.. esp when things arent going the right way now.
im quite glad i was with them last night.. coz it was also the night when things at my house go wrong. i dun feel like facing my parents.. probably i got no idea how to oso. its so sian to be harping on the same old issue again and again. HAIS. LIFE SUCKS. GRRRRRR.
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