Sometimes i really hope im living in my dreams, that way, nth will be true.. *sighs*
i wish i could turn back time to know the real you again.. maybe you said all that u said in a fit of anger but somehow i cant accept those words.. its too harsh.. it makes u sound so aggressive and me scared of ya.. cheap is definitely not the word i would want u to use on anyone.. yes i noe.. the feeling of being betrayed.. but why wanna say those words to hurt the other party when u noe how disappointed it is to be hurt by the person u like most..
decided to write it out here instead of over at the other blog.. dunno why the decision.. yeaps.. talked to him the other night and couldnt really take it.. the way he speaked was so aggressive and revengeful.. din noe 1 can be so full of hatred to others.. sighs.. maybe we are really from two different worlds.. i dunno.. it makes me scared of him from the way he speaks.. yes i noe he need frens to be by his side but i really hope he would change.. he needs help from himself more than others.. if he cant even listen to himself, i guess he wont listen to others oso.. its always lidat, at least for me.. he is just so stubborn.. maybe lena is right.. i shld be by his side to lend him a listening ear and to support him.. but.. we seem to land in argument whenever i tok to him abt it.. sighs.. speechless at times.. and helpless.. :(
he din wanna go back the other day when we were talking.. but at least he listened to me and headed home.. dun understand why.. he din wanted his parents to get worried yet din wanna go back.. (-.-") cant find him since yesterday.. hope he's fine.. know where he went yesterday but kinda worried.. i would definitely not want to see any of my frens get into any kind of harm.. =/
hope things will go fine for you and pls stand on ur feets again.. no point indulging in depression and thinking of ways to spite her.. that is being childish.. told ya b4.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. wads the point of spiting her? just to make urself more miserable.. hope u would keep ur promises.. and not change to someone i wouldnt wanna see..
going work soon.. take care pals.. shall update again..
Saturday, August 20, 2005
just reached 900 words for assignment 2. 600 more words to go! jia you suling! haha.. met up with cheryl today.. accompany her to marsiling for a haircut.. i tot she looks alrite but she thinks otherwise.. hmm.. nvm.. :) went sakae for dinner with her.. both of us ordered ramen.. yum yum... its nice.. tommy was nice too. to give us free mochi and he did not count the colour plate that we have on the table.. hehee.. yeapz.. headed home after that.. nth much..
that's the pig jiamin gave me.. --->
din erase the bday song away.. its still there! hee..
oh yah.. today karen called me from the other office and told me to report for work there this coming monday.. that means i will be helping out in the finance dept.. wooo.. new task! she even asked if i wanna extend my stay.. dunno if its for real.. but i dun mind, hopefully the part time pay will be not bad.. hee..
hmm.. looks still remain as they are. no changes. except that it makes me as clueless as ever. all the calls and sms-es. we are close friends. no doubt about that. :) no worries gals.. i know where to stop and when to stop. not gonna walk beyond the boundaries of "friends". that is it for now..
Monday, August 15, 2005
currently at my workplace, its so boring~~ nth to do.. finished off all the assignments already and there was nth more for me.. sob sob.. anyway.. thanx peimei!~ heehee.. i noe u care..:x lets just hope things wont get too knotty and out of hand over here.
been thinking whether to study full time or part time after my diplomas, making such a decision is also rather a headache. having considering the pros and cons of each, i still cant manage to differentiate the weightage of both. Part time course will only be conducted in the evenings and i can work full time in the morning.. but the problem is, will i be able to really concentrate on the lessons after a day of tiring work? Moreover, the fees for part time course is somehow abt the same as full time course, just that i will be able to earn while i learn.
If i were to take up a full time course instead, i wont be able to pay off the bank loans that i have for my poly fees.. and shld i continue taking up loans, i think by the time i really start to have an income, they will all go to the bank..:(:(:( sighs. one good thing abt full time is that i will be able to concentrate much better and perhaps have a part time job after school to support myself.. but the fees will still be a problem to me.. sobx... how how how.. seriously dunno wad i wan..
Sianz.. sometimes some things will become a habit eventually and shld there be a day without it, i would feel rather uneasy i think.. sighs.. please please let whatever the outcome is be positive.
Whatever it is, i just hope that the friendship would remain strong and still, able to withstand all kinds of obstacles that may surface and the promise to be fulfilled. not to forget that we have already hooked our fingers, so im keeping them crossed now. :) So dun u dare break the promise. "promises are not to be broken".
been thinking whether to study full time or part time after my diplomas, making such a decision is also rather a headache. having considering the pros and cons of each, i still cant manage to differentiate the weightage of both. Part time course will only be conducted in the evenings and i can work full time in the morning.. but the problem is, will i be able to really concentrate on the lessons after a day of tiring work? Moreover, the fees for part time course is somehow abt the same as full time course, just that i will be able to earn while i learn.
If i were to take up a full time course instead, i wont be able to pay off the bank loans that i have for my poly fees.. and shld i continue taking up loans, i think by the time i really start to have an income, they will all go to the bank..:(:(:( sighs. one good thing abt full time is that i will be able to concentrate much better and perhaps have a part time job after school to support myself.. but the fees will still be a problem to me.. sobx... how how how.. seriously dunno wad i wan..
Sianz.. sometimes some things will become a habit eventually and shld there be a day without it, i would feel rather uneasy i think.. sighs.. please please let whatever the outcome is be positive.
Whatever it is, i just hope that the friendship would remain strong and still, able to withstand all kinds of obstacles that may surface and the promise to be fulfilled. not to forget that we have already hooked our fingers, so im keeping them crossed now. :) So dun u dare break the promise. "promises are not to be broken".
Saturday, August 13, 2005
went to work today.. quite alrite, finally i did not short of far too much money or exceed too much this time. just $0.20! haha.. :x
Met up with milo and nisa ytd.. quite alrite and i think we 3 were mad. lolx! had dinner at far east, wanted to go sakura but there was too many people so we changed to another store in far east. I still prefer sakura though.. :x Then headed to delifrance.. nisa had the sudden urge to eat ice cream.. -.-" hahaz.. got there at ard 930.. and their last order was at 945.. pro right?! got home at ard 11.. but ok lahx, once in awhile. haven been out till very late these days.. yeapz.. and its really nice meeting up with them again.. Really, i feel that communication plays a very big part in all kinds of relationships.. if not i think, people will sure drift apart.. so i will try to meet up with more people now! lolx.. especially in the coming break before school starts..
hmm.. well well.. this portion here is written for a friend whom i dun think know of my blog~ lolx..
"your words really made me speechless for that moment, do you know that? and i nearly fainted upon those words..*phew* "
hahz.. and milo, i cant sleep much last nite! keep thinking of the words i pasted for u to see last nite! lolx! i dunno why sia.. :x
maybe its the first time some1 said that to me.. thought it over, its better to leave things as it is now.. ^-^ and perhaps will just do as you said since there is no commitment or whatsoever. haha! :x:X Wish me luck guys~ Shall keep this blog more updated very soon i hope..:)
Tues is the final theory test again. wish me luck! my bro and dad tells me not to fail it again.. -.- not that i wanna fail rite! hahaz.. forget it.. i will just try my best.. if not, i shall wait for people to fetch me next time and i hope that person will keep the promise made. lolx..
Met up with milo and nisa ytd.. quite alrite and i think we 3 were mad. lolx! had dinner at far east, wanted to go sakura but there was too many people so we changed to another store in far east. I still prefer sakura though.. :x Then headed to delifrance.. nisa had the sudden urge to eat ice cream.. -.-" hahaz.. got there at ard 930.. and their last order was at 945.. pro right?! got home at ard 11.. but ok lahx, once in awhile. haven been out till very late these days.. yeapz.. and its really nice meeting up with them again.. Really, i feel that communication plays a very big part in all kinds of relationships.. if not i think, people will sure drift apart.. so i will try to meet up with more people now! lolx.. especially in the coming break before school starts..
hmm.. well well.. this portion here is written for a friend whom i dun think know of my blog~ lolx..
"your words really made me speechless for that moment, do you know that? and i nearly fainted upon those words..*phew* "
hahz.. and milo, i cant sleep much last nite! keep thinking of the words i pasted for u to see last nite! lolx! i dunno why sia.. :x
maybe its the first time some1 said that to me.. thought it over, its better to leave things as it is now.. ^-^ and perhaps will just do as you said since there is no commitment or whatsoever. haha! :x:X Wish me luck guys~ Shall keep this blog more updated very soon i hope..:)
Tues is the final theory test again. wish me luck! my bro and dad tells me not to fail it again.. -.- not that i wanna fail rite! hahaz.. forget it.. i will just try my best.. if not, i shall wait for people to fetch me next time and i hope that person will keep the promise made. lolx..
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